Nikkis 1st Anniversary

Created by Andy one year ago
It’s been a year Sweetheart. Most days, it feels like just a day or two. Still now, 12 months on, we can find ourselves saying "Is This Real? Is Nikki really never coming home?" Gradually though, acceptance is setting in and we realise that Yes, this is real and there is nothing we can do to change that.

There will never come a day, hour, minute or second we stop loving you or thinking of you. We talk to you all the time Princess. You will often find one of us sat on your bed chatting away to you. Mum telling you all about what’s happening in your favourite TV programmes, Holby City & Casualty. We picture you saying “Awww, Poor Ethan” as you often did. Me updating you on the days weather forecast and if it's suitable for one of our lovely walks or it's a picnic in the car kinda day! then doing the ‘Norman Wisdom’ trip as I leave your room. You always laughed hysterically, saying "Silly Dad" no matter how often I did it. How we miss the sound of your voice & laughter.

Just as parents of living children unconditionally love their children always and forever, so do bereaved parents. There is no greater bond than the connection between parents who understand the agony of enduring the loss of a child, no matter what age they are. It’s a pain we will suffer for a lifetime. There is no “moving on” or “getting over it”. There is no fix, no solution to our heartache. There is no end to the ways we will grieve. There is no glue for our broken hearts, no elixir for our pain, no going back in time. For as long as we breathe, we will grieve and ache and love you with all our hearts and souls. Grief lasts forever, because love lasts forever. Every missed birthday, holidays, empty space in every picture, empty chair, empty room. Empty, forever gone for this lifetime. There is and always will be an empty space in our lives, a forever hole in our hearts.  Nothing can ever fill them. 💔 Only those who have walked the path of child loss can truly understand the depth and breadth of both the pain and the love we carry with us every day.

Nikki, you are the greatest gift we were ever given. We were so blessed to have you. No words exist that describes our pain. Our hearts 💕ache for you.

We Love and Miss You so much Sweetheart. 💗

All our Love, Always & Forever Mum & Dad 💞

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